I am agnostic, may be I modified the definition of being agnostic. When I want something I believe in god and pray him but when I get or have everything I want, I don’t believe his existence or don’t pray him. So this is my nature towards god.
Let me tell you a small incident that happened today morning. I dressed up to office in my pink suite though not very beautiful as always I was cheerful, the naughty smile on my face makes me look prettier at times this is the comment I get usually. I came down to kitchen to wish mom bye, she was smiling to see me dressed up and told that I am looking good today.
Don’t know why when mom says this I get irritated, may be because I remember my uncle teasing me by saying a kannada saying ‘Hettavarige heganavu muddu’ which means for parents even the rodent looks good! So I neglected her words wished her bye and left for my stop to board my cab.
When I was standing there, I saw a very beautiful girl passing by each and everyone was staring at her. I must say she was actually very beautiful, with shiny silky hair was let free and the white salwar was perfectly matching her beautiful fair complexion I must say she was looking like angel walking down in that dirty road.
Suddenly I started Cursing god for not giving me this beauty, I was so sad and asked god why dint he make me this beautiful, why don’t people turn around to look at me when I am walking. I cursed god for cheating me. By this time of me cursing god this girl had passed by and there was a School bus which was on its way and stopped in my stop.
The bus was full with kids shouting and laughing, I was very happy to see that and I observed closely this was the school bus for mentally challenged kids. In that two min I could observe kids laughing for no reason making weird sounds touching each other. My heart sank, just 2 min back I thought this bus was full with smiles and happiness but now I got to know these smiles and laughter had no meaning but they just existed there.
Now suddenly I remembered god! Why don’t I ask him anything now? Do I ever think that he has given me many things that some of them really want to have? I was ashamed of myself for being so self-centered…I guess this is the way god speaks to us and teaches us about life. Those who pick this up would have learnt a beautiful lesson.
Lost in these thoughts I was staring at that bus, suddenly I saw a little hand of a child from that bus window wishing me bye…
Let me tell you a small incident that happened today morning. I dressed up to office in my pink suite though not very beautiful as always I was cheerful, the naughty smile on my face makes me look prettier at times this is the comment I get usually. I came down to kitchen to wish mom bye, she was smiling to see me dressed up and told that I am looking good today.
Don’t know why when mom says this I get irritated, may be because I remember my uncle teasing me by saying a kannada saying ‘Hettavarige heganavu muddu’ which means for parents even the rodent looks good! So I neglected her words wished her bye and left for my stop to board my cab.
When I was standing there, I saw a very beautiful girl passing by each and everyone was staring at her. I must say she was actually very beautiful, with shiny silky hair was let free and the white salwar was perfectly matching her beautiful fair complexion I must say she was looking like angel walking down in that dirty road.
Suddenly I started Cursing god for not giving me this beauty, I was so sad and asked god why dint he make me this beautiful, why don’t people turn around to look at me when I am walking. I cursed god for cheating me. By this time of me cursing god this girl had passed by and there was a School bus which was on its way and stopped in my stop.
The bus was full with kids shouting and laughing, I was very happy to see that and I observed closely this was the school bus for mentally challenged kids. In that two min I could observe kids laughing for no reason making weird sounds touching each other. My heart sank, just 2 min back I thought this bus was full with smiles and happiness but now I got to know these smiles and laughter had no meaning but they just existed there.
Now suddenly I remembered god! Why don’t I ask him anything now? Do I ever think that he has given me many things that some of them really want to have? I was ashamed of myself for being so self-centered…I guess this is the way god speaks to us and teaches us about life. Those who pick this up would have learnt a beautiful lesson.
Lost in these thoughts I was staring at that bus, suddenly I saw a little hand of a child from that bus window wishing me bye…
3 comments:
Nice post. You write with so much energy and emotion, i like that!
~chaos
A Kannada Saying "Tumbida Koda Tulukuvudilla".I Am thinking, Ramya Also like that. Any way Super writing.
i love ur blog, no really i love it! its just so......so...good! i can say tht u have written all of ur articles wit lots of enthusiasm and energy! SUPER! XLENT! THNKS A LOT!
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