(Disclaimer: This post is only flow of my thoughts and definitely not to hurt anybody’s view)
I have this nature of questioning and wanting to know the reason behind everything from my childhood. People who know me from my childhood still call me “Why Baby”. And even now I question a lot and its mostly about this concept of GOD and the applicability of the orthodox and age old traditions that we are following till date, but when I ask such questions it makes me look like an Atheist. So friends with all these questions about GOD and the Orthodoxies here I am asking your help to refute such views about me!!
Seems like many are already slapping both the cheeks and confessing god for having landed on this blog? But buddies go on read it; it’s ok to sin once in a while! And please help me sort out this confusion of whether am I an atheist?
Should I find profound peace and happiness, if I see all the pictures of god and salute it as soon as I get up in the morning? If yes…Then tell me, how many of us do it with love towards the almighty and how many of us merely do it being scared of bad day that may follow if we don’t do this??? Most consider this as essential part of theism
But I prefer to get up and smile to the person whom I love the most, whom I touch and feel. I prefer to share the love with a nice warm good morning message with everyone in my family whom I want to see every morning when I get up! So does this make me an Atheist???
Should I chant prayers without missing a day which praises the god almighty, spend a great amount of time in front of the god, singing and praising him?
But I prefer to sit with my family or friends and tell them how much I love them and thank them for being with me when I want them. Of course I will be proud of every little thing they do so I do praise them; I do love to see them happy instead of chanting the same prayers and following the same rituals everyday!
So does this thought make me an Atheist???
Should I consider it as very wrong to offer a small portion of the food to god that which is cooked without taking bath!!! Also is it a sin if you consume the food without taking bath!
But I concentrate on cooking food maintaining good hygiene and serving to people as soon as they want it. Also I am ok on consuming healthy food when I am really hungry, Hunger has killed many. There are people who are just waiting for a piece of bread to survive and haven’t bathed for years. And for all these did the farmer think of having bath before he grew our food???
So does this make me an Atheist???
Should I be chanting different Prayers pleasing different gods for peace, for happiness, for prosperity, for strength and for love and that too strictly while fasting and following rules?
But If I waste time shouting on people for not following the age old tradition most part of the day, I see neither the Peace mantra nor the happiness for family mantra working!!! Oh yes I follow all the tradition which is so much to my neck and land not working how does the prosperity and Strength mantra work? I wonder if it takes a hug, a smile, a compliment and a much needed “I love you” or just some mantra to keep the family bonded!!!
So do these thoughts make me an Atheist???
Sorry, I don’t see god being pleased in few defined prayers, I don’t see him confined to one room in my home, I don’t see him happy when I follow age old tradition which makes me question the scientifically proven facts. I don’t see him when I am hungry or rather when anyone else is hungry. Also I don’t see him being angry with me when I don’t do all these. I don’t see him! I don’t see him! I really don’t see him doing any of the above.
But yes I see him when people smile at me, I see him happy when I serve someone hungry, I see him when I hug a dear one when they really need it, I see him when I serve a needy, I see him when somebody is happy because of me. I see him angry when I hurt someone, I see him sad when I let down my loved ones. I see him yes I do everywhere and in every person I meet.
So do these thoughts make me an Atheist??? If yes I am proud to be one!