The only person standing in your way is you.

What are best memories of one’s life? What according to you are the moments that you want to hold on to till your last breathe?

For me the best things in life are when a baby’s heart beat is felt for the first time in the mother’s womb and the glow and emotions in father’s eyes. Actually everything a baby does for first time isn’t it very memorable and one will want to cherish it for life time? Just ask about your childhood stories and trust me your parents will have plenty of stories to tell about how you learnt to walk, how you learnt to eat.

And so according to me the best things in life is when you  break the barrier and learn to do something new which you thought you could never do. So something like that happened with me, I broke the self created barrier and flew so high for one time that it’s now the dearest experience which I will hold on to till my last breathe

Not that I have won noble or Oscar but yes I have won myself and so I wish to share with you all this little victory of mine over myself.

December is the month of events, our team started cruising through the events and victories from sports and cultural events were flowing in and now came the dance event. I was chosen by default as I am classical dancer and have performed on stage many times but then it was only me who knew what I was going through! Oh yes I am a very good dancer but alas in all my life I have never danced anything other than classical at the max I have performed Folk which still holds good with classical dancers. But then the song chosen was completely western and of course there is no classical in it and if I danced I would be dancing Western, salsa and Bollywood forms.

You think what’s the big deal, oh yeah yeah its completely big thing for a classical dancer to pick up this form and learn it in just few days to be performing in front of huge crowd. So there I was having inhibitions about my physic which I thought would never suit this form , My over Expression which flowed in from classical dancing for close to 2 decades which wont suit this form and biggest of all my inferiority…. There is a saying in Sanskrit which says you can defeat anybody else but to kill the enemy in you it needs lot of dedication. There I was in middle of complete chaotic mindset barbed in my thoughts and still in the dancing room waiting for my choreographer to walk in…

As I stood there doing my namaskara in classical form and getting ready to start salsa I wished I was thrown out of team as all I could imagine was people laughing at my SALSICAL !!! Trust me western dance form and classical expression is the biggest joke one can ever crack!!! I confessed this with everyone no matter what everywhere the answer I got was “just shutup and dance for the team”. That’s it I had got 50% of my confidence to stand for the team no matter what, But the other 50% which I thought was toughest came in so easily when my choreographer held my hand and told “Do it for the love of Dance”. Yes there I was trying to do my first Salsa step with the new dance team and with 100% confidence of the love I had for dancing…

One of the greatest choreographer, George Balanchine rightly said “Dancers are instruments, like a piano the choreographer plays.” And our choreographers, a handsome man Akshay and pretty lady Divya had played the best music out of us and there we were on the day of competition jumping at the victory of our team for which I was one of the dancers!!!!

I had just broken all the barriers I had about my looks, my influence of other dance form and there I was just dancing, dancing my heart out. Trust me friends its only passion you need to do anything, If you have left anything undone because of your inhibitions break free start it today you will learn it soon all you need is PASSION and BELIEF!

Now I truly understand what BLACK SWAN movie wanted to convey….

To dance is to be out of yourself.  Larger, more beautiful, more powerful.  ~Agnes De Mille