We nest, migrate and nest again!

I stood there staring for long at the message on my phone, well it was an invite for a house warming ceremony. It would be just another invite if it was not in the current situation I was in. I stood in the living room of my home cluttered with all the carton boxes filled with the stuffs to be shipped. There I was planning a migration to a new place and there was somebody happily nesting in the place I decided to leave, the ironies of life!

Soon the day came when all my bags were packed and I was ready to go but was I really? Life puts us in different situations and takes us to unexpected places, may be to nurture us, for better or only to make us appreciate more all that we had. I left home, left the country, left the familiar to start a new journey, well this journey I have begun is more a deja vu. It's just like starting the life I left back home, all over again. 

Well, they say leaving the comfort zone is to discover something, probably it is discovering ourselves. Slowly I am starting to discover my strengths, my weaknesses and where my heart lies! Trust me, settling in a new place is no less than a meditation. It's a journey exploring yourself. Just while I am finding ways to balance the emotional turmoil of missing people and places back home, suddenly I just know it's time to start something new and trust the magic of beginnings.

Although the memories of goodbyes, warm hugs and tears dropped are still afresh in my heart and is painting a hue of melancholy, I stare at the beautiful drizzle, open up to the cool breeze, try hugging the warm sunlight, and I feel a new beginning is coming my way. It's time that I run towards it opening my arms wide. I left my nest migrated to a new place and have started nesting again. It's time for another adventure. Dear future, I am ready

PS: venting out the chaos in my mind following a recent relocation. :)

Sinfully yours...

How long it's been since our last encounter, Do you have any idea what my crazy heart is beseeching for? I am sure it must be a great pleasure for you to stand at a distance and look at me crave for your one touch, to see my want to melt in your warm breath and my madness to lose myself in your arms.

How do I tell you that just a thought of you gushes my darkest desires. Here I am pondering where this crazy fascination of you would lead me to, as there are times when I think of you so sinfully wicked that my heart skips a beat with delight. I don't want much just your hugs, kisses and you.

It all begins with a single kiss of yours, which is an unstoppable force urging me to surrender. The ravenous for more and more with every touch of yours grows on me unbound. Once in your arms, staring at you all I thought was why this lust but now I know it's love that I am sinking in. And again, I lose myself thinking that such mad passionate love should be experienced at least once in a life time.

Isn't it unfair to keep me waiting like this? I am waiting for the piercing joy that leaves me conquered. I crave for the smell of you and the smell of us. You are not making it easy for me, you are making me want you. How you smile seeing me glow alluringly as you slowly pour your love all over me. Yes, I am beautiful only because you love me.

Lets make some noise together, which will linger in our hearts forever. We are bonded in this tantalizing love for each other, which knows no rule just sheer love. Trust me, I am sinfully yours! Bhumi smiled as the rumblings in her mind will be unheard but she was sure that Varun will know it all in just one kiss.

PS: Personifying hot summer thirst of Earth (Bhumi) for Rains (Varun)! Reread for a different meaning ;) .

A letter to myself on my son's first Mother's day

Dear Me,

Congratulations on your First Mother's day as a mom.

Earlier this year, a little bundle was gifted to you which is a complete package of infinite kisses, abundant love, warm hugs, innocent laughter, ton loads of memories to treasure, tears of happiness, personification of true love, a bit of heaven and a lifetime joy. From the moment this little bundle was placed in your arms, you are lost in the world of pure love which never before existed in your life.

Just 9 months into motherhood, you have explored the many faces of  happiness and fears, you have mastered the art of understanding the coos, you are ready to give up on your choices, you are bound strongly to the tiny soul which revolves around you. Kudos mamma, this is exactly when you pop a champagne, relax with a sense of accomplishment and wish yourself for being a mom finally!

But let's pause a bit. The reminiscence of all those tears, which trickled down as you secretly hoped for a blessing from all the mothers to sparkle some baby dust on you as you wished them on Mother's Day previously,  must knock your heart. As you read through the lovely messages wishing you for being a first time mom, let your heart slip into the memoir of all the failed prayers, lost hope and pain endured then. It might push you to contemplate whether to celebrate now or to silently pray for those enduring the plight still.

On one end, there are many praying to give birth to a new life and on the other, there are many praying to save the life they have given birth to. Each and every day, boundless tears are shed in the struggle to be a mom and also in the struggle to meet the ends of motherhood, such is the contradicting way of life! On this very first Mother's day of your son, make a promise to be compassionate to everyone waging this struggle. Make sure to give your son a happy mother who loves life and teaches him to do so. Pray that with his every giggle may there be lesser and lesser sighs of pain.

Remember motherhood is always an act of courage, the courage to love truly and honestly. With this hope, I wish you a very Happy Mother's day.

Good luck mamma!

Yours truly
- Myself 

How would you like to spend it?

Live life to the fullest because it happens only once, but for few it happens more than once. And I am one of those very few who has been given a golden second chance to live again. In a very unfortunate incident which happened 11years ago, I had almost breathed my last but then I fought back to live because I was not ready.

Yes, I was not really ready, I was in my final year of graduation when that incident had happened and at that point in my life, all I was a darling daughter to my parents and a fun loving being with my friends. Life was just happening without me putting much effort into it. Not that something great happened post this incident its just that something very essential happened, LIFE happened.

The Life that happened in these 11 years has been magical and it carved the real me! Post that incident, I fell in love and I fell out of it many times, but I learnt to value the love I got. I am termed ugly by few and beautiful by few, well it taught me how deceptive looks could be and makes me appreciate the beauty in everything and everyone around me. I realized that happiness is not same for everyone, someone else is happy with less than what I have, an ingredient of compassion was added then. I am most certain now there are few sets of people, who always see my nicer side no matter the emotional turmoil that I put them through, this taught me to appreciate the emotional struggle people go through and respect that. I have failed and won, but I learnt how to cope with how the world treats in both the situation.

Most importantly, I saw a Life go away amidst all of us and I saw a life come into our life, the conflict that my mind went through in these two extremities of nature makes me appreciate, live and love every single moment of this beautiful life. I would have gone just as a darling person to my family, but today that unfortunate incident few years back on which I rebuilt my life has added a lot of gems in my treasury. And yes, just like everyone else my life has also failed to be perfect, but it never has failed to be beautiful. So pause a moment appreciate it, fall in love with yourself and all the abnormalities of your life, trust me you will fondly treasure it someday.

Life is like a coin, so its up to you to decide how you would like to spend it.